You are called to this work. I’ve read the piece and the comments. I’ve struggled with the pastor’s comment and the response to it. The discourse may be the point — awareness.
Your ending note sums it up well: “I don’t know why he specifically made you this way. I don’t know what his purpose for and in you is”.
I don’t know why? I don’t believe many of us do this side of heaven. I am confident of this: He will use this struggle for good.